So wheres my parting sea?

I am at a place in my life right now where I find it difficult to complete a regimented bible reading plan or keep a consistent prayer time. I find it hard to do the same old same old when all I want is a drastic change in my circumstances. I feel like I am going throughout my day and fitting God into my schedule out of obligation more than out of passion. This has made me realize that just as in all relationships there is not a steady rise and fall to the passion of my and God's relationship. It is better compared to a rollercoaster with the steep rises and falls and unpredictably of where we will head to next. A few years ago I would describe our relationship as much more passionate and that we were 'closer.' But God is showing me that I am wrong in that assumption. Mother Theresa was called to work with poverty stricken children in a certain village but circumstances kept her from being allowed to help and she was trapped and on top of that she no longer 'heard' God in the way she had in earlier times. But this silence did not cause her faith to waiver and she waited patiently until the timing was right even though she was not given any inkling to when that would happen. I think we could all learn from Mother Theresa because we all have the tendency to get caught up in passion instead of realizing that the absence of passion can be one of Gods most powerful tools. He uses this silence to grow our faith and patience. I also believe we grow in wisdom more quickly because we are not caught up in the emotional ups and downs of the relationship but now have time to reflect on whats most important to us and what we have learned about God and about ourselves.